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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
okay.. i'm officially 20 now=(
haha spent my birthday studying law... i can't believe it=(
okay damn tired. com not working, can't upload pics.
my ipod is spoilt!! damn thing refuses to sync with the computer=( sigh.. and my warranty has expired..=(
feel like getting the red ipod... maybe a bigger memory. now mine's 4GB but not enough alr=(
haha i'm sick and tired of my current one constantly breaking down=( and now i can't send it to repair also cause must pay=(
oh well.. shall update tmr.. too tired now... zzz...
kaela @
12:10:00 AM
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Monday, April 28, 2008
okays i'll be turning 20 in er.... less than an hour plus!! omgosh=/ so old alr!!!! =/
haha spent tdy with qiu and liy at bucks again=D feel so much freeer and released.. thanks so much for setting me free last night=)
haha we took alot alot of silly pics tdy=D and obviously, not much mugging was down again=/ haha oh and qiu was being a total narcissist tdy=/ she took like...20 pics of herself ? lol =D pity i don't have any of them!
haha i can't get enough of the gorgeous roses!
i'm turning 20!!
haha the mess on our table is oh-so-understated=/
as you can see, qiu's bag is there but she's not there! the slacker=/
in the sunlight!
me with TIGAR!
love liy!!
haha i like the sunlight effect!!
she's glowing=)
while demonstrating to qiu her narcissistic actions=/
awwwww.....
haha my hair's damn messy=/
qiu refused to take me!! haha cause i called her a narcissist=D but she was what!! taking multiple pics of herself nonstop eh!=D
sunlight so bright=D haha sun setting=)
narcissist and me=D
haha scrunch nose!
ugllyyyyyy
even more uglyyyyy!!
haha she's showing off her new scarf-band=D
sweetness=D
i love her!
haha more retarded faces!
haha we really took alot of pics right?
ah that's my bag on my lap, i'n attempt to hide the tummy=D
haha i so love my girls,
they make life worthwhile(:
kaela @
11:28:00 PM
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
yup my pics still arent posting well=/ so er after trying to expand them they're a bit out of shape=/ haha..
met him.... gave me alot of things that surprised me greatly... thanks so much for the bday presents and all..i really appreciate it... i really regret that we can't remain friends..but i guess.. this is really for the best.... just be strong ok? you'lll always be remembered... and i know... you'll be able to pull through this... just remember the good times and keep them as happy memories.. i don't blame you for anything.. if it's anyone's fault it's mine, cause i'm just too tired to carry on anymore.. i'm sorry i can't give you another chance.. i'm really just exhausted... take care okay? i really hope you'll meet someone better..~
well... so west coast park was extremely hot! dad sent us over=D haha hazel was so so excited! she's so adorable=D haha luckily brought her out to a fresh new place=D
haha we took turns walking her=) the park isn't very big... and very sunny[/
oh yes!! saw people playing ultimate frisbee also.. haha qiu and i were tempted to join!! lol but we're no longer in frisbee=(
thanks so much qiu and dada for always brightening my day=D love you guys lots=D
me with hazel!
haha she was so tired she ko-ed on the way back
birthday present: 20 roses for my 20th birthday
biggest (and only) bouquet i've ever received! lol
i've named it TIGAR=D
THANKS so much... i really feel so much better after the convo... i'm glad things are finally working out... thanks so much for your understanding and efforts.. =D
kaela @
9:30:00 PM
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zzz... it's going to be another long day... hopefully we'll be able to mug today.. change of plans... since ryan couldn't make it we're taking hazel instead!! haha she so deserves to go out and have some fun! poor creature's been cooped up for so many days already=(
yup, and cause we're afraid she might struggle travelling the distance to the east, we decided to take a journey to the west instead=) haha west coast park! plus there's a huge mac there to mug at=) hmmmm...
zzz i'm so sleepy.. didn't get much sleep.. after we hung up.. i think i cried myself to sleep... and.. woke at 7..=/ my alarm wasn't due to ring until almost 3 hours later=/ sigh... oh well.. spent the morning teaching my mum how to hula and playing every song i know on the piano=) haha great way to kill time! =D
mugging a little now with dada while waiting for qiu to end her tuition so we can leave=)
zzzzzz so sleepy!
kaela @
11:41:00 AM
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met with qiu,and of course, no mugging took plac.e don't know why i even bother to bring any mugging materials out=/ we spent 6 hours emo-ing..
sigh... i'm really at a loss..... i can't concentrate on anything... and i'm afraid to see you later...
kaela @
12:11:00 AM
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
zzz so tiring! haha had a double sibling tuition earlier=) haha damn entertaining though watching sister and brother throw sarcastic and subtly snide remarks all through the hours=) haha next pair in coming soon!! ah ha oh well since i can't study might as well earn money. the sessions i gave for today wll earn me abt... 200? haha oh well. terms almost up and i need to quickly raise money for school fees for sem 3=/
whoa so scary. almost 1/3 of uni life is over!!
need to think of a lists of things to do during the hols to entertain myself with otherwise i'll really get bored out..
zzz at least i'll be meeting my dear qiu later after tuition=)
kaela @
1:44:00 PM
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Friday, April 25, 2008
still wasn't feeling so good today.. woke up with head feeling damn heavy.. eyes soggy and feeling old and diminished..
went to jurong point to meet liy and qiu... i'm so glad to have them around otherwise i'd really break... thanks so much my loves for all your support.. we went to toysrus first for a stroll-through=) haha and... started gym exercises with the hula hoops there! haha i've never been able to hula! but can imagine how long we were trying i actually got it!! lol.. our hoops got water inside=D yup so in the end qiu and i got one to practise on and hopefully reduce the bulge of our tummies(not that she has one! she's absolutely flat at her tummy area!)
haha i know, random people doing random things! so we ended up gg for lunch and walking around everywhere with hulas=D oh yup mine's called HULA, qiu's one is called HOOPS. haha!!! i named them!! spastic=D
went to coffeebean supposedly to mug but cause of all the problems still looming overhead, qiu and i still cannot bring ourselves to mug.. ended up singing to the ipod songs and laughing and joking. we were kinda desperate to feel good i guess... was supposed to catch a movie with dada too but in the end.. random people of the world decided to take SINGING AT COFFEE BEAN TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL! haha by... gg to KBOX! lol
i k-boxed exactly 2 weeks ago only with my sim friends! lol.. and.. it's alr been a week since camp ended.. time flies=(
haha so we sang till our hearts content=) unfortunately, no mugging took place=/ after kboing i went to met my jc friends for dinner.. chunpin, sherwyn, shuang ai, myron and joe. haha the guys are CRAZY drivers=) haha i survived the ride!
zzz i'm really sleepy! tuition tmr... oh yup desiree quit alr, but now i have a new student! haha he's shwu boon's brother..ming zhou! good good.. help to occupy my time so i won't think so much.. will be seeing ALL my students tmr.. zzz so i'll be sleeping soon otherwise no energy..
sigh i havent been mugging at all.... will fail my papers=(
okays i'm damn tired... gg to sleep alr...
kaela @
10:34:00 PM
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
realy great track that i keep playing...
当世界 不知不觉的变了 When the world changed unknowingly
有时候
我怀念以前的我 Sometimes I miss the way I used to be
作的梦 虽然远远的 Even though my dreams are far fetched
想像是 一种快乐 Just thinking about it is a kind of happiness
拥有了
同时也失去什麼 After gaining something, what have I lost at the same time?
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱 And longing for love will actually bring out my weakness
你让我在雾里成熟 You’ve allowed me to grow up in the mist
心开始曲折 My heart starts to feel complicated
我不想舍得 不想懂得 I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand
是谁惹谁 言不由衷 Regardless of who provoked who, we didn’t mean it in our words
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错 Hurting each other with lies, is all due to our feeling of insecurity
怕抱不紧什麼 Because we are afraid of not being able to grasp something
我不想舍得 不想懂得 I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand
谁说割爱 才更深刻 Who said that giving up your love will be more memorable?
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷 Relying on each other is love not burden
互相照顾就是幸福的 Caring for each other is happiness.
sigh... my head feels heavy.. i'm so so tired...
kaela @
11:20:00 PM
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oh yup, i wrote a mini-song few days ago~ haha its supposed to be a full song but i kinda got music-blocked=/
Lose the pain.
the phone becomes silent, your voice disappears
absense grows no fondness, it acts like a curse
you upped the stakes, i can't concentrate
memories of us, by the winds disperse
in anger you turned, your back facing me
all that i'm doing, it's not what you want to see
the final blow came, there's no one to blame
all i want now is to flee and be free...
ineedtobeoccupied.
kaela @
9:22:00 PM
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yay first paper was over yesterday!!! BYE MACRO E!! =D
haha didnt really study much for it cause was damn tired.. and moody=( sigh..
it's all over already... from yesterday after the paper... got dumped=(
guess it's my fault.. i'm really too tired to try anymore also... we're just 2 very different people trying too hard to fit together.. and i really don't have the confidence and strength to take it anymore.. i can foresee all this repeating again and again..and its really really tiring... maybe, we just arent right for each other.. sigh okays shan't say anymore..
hmmm my 20th birthday is looming ahead, don't want to turn 20!! so old already=(
hmmm oh yup after the paper ytd was girls day outing=D feeling down so cabbed to vivo, went to visit Adelina=D and we ate superdog!! haha the girls bought me a rose also! haha i named it ROSIE!! lol=D and then qiu and i went to catch forbidden kingdom=D haha kinda cute lah seeing all the chinese actors speak english=D
after the show, went to C-town for awhile for qiu to pick up a cheque, and then we headed to to clarke quay to chill at tcc... and to central to shop!
qiu dear don't be sad, i love you!! thanks for accompanying me too=D really feel better with you around=D hugs~ hope you enjoyed yourself too!
haha although i'm facing a broken relationship, i happen to be doing alot of counselling! lol irony of ironies.
oh yup and forgot to mention.. cause on mon both qiu and i were so moody, we went to get a hair-job=D liy did treatment, qiu did treatment and permed, i trimmed my long locks away, did treatment and re-permed! haha cause after trimming the long locks off my hair wasnt curly anymore=/ haha but i like the new hair even though i permed from root it's more wavy and hmm.. light?
sigh... just so tired of everything now.. trying to get my mind of things cause i really can't concentrate to mug... like for econs i hardly studied.. it's lucky i took econs at jc or i'd really be screwed=/
i can't seem to sleep well.. keep waking up alert in the middle of the night, and i have no appetite whatsoever=( oh well then again it could be a good thing, i'm not exactly slim=/ haha=/
so... i'm trying to spend all my time with my friends so i won't be stuck stoning and moody=/ spending my days with qiu mostly, giving tuition over the weekend, and studying (if only). i really don't want to screw up finals!
haha okay i don't know what to say alr...
oh yup, just want to say, thanks for your help, you really helped clear the dark clouds from my days.. i'll try to be happy=)
kaela @
9:20:00 PM
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
i think this song suits my current situation better.. =( sigh..
你最近不说话
怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的 我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭 你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
kaela @
11:39:00 PM
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been listening to some chinese love songs.. thought this was very very sweet~
but... doesn't really fit my situation now=/
it' s called ti amo..
雖然是簡單的形容
雖然是重複的動作
因為有你 讓一切都變成不平凡
好想縫合妳我手心 就這樣牽住放不開
有妳陪伴 呼吸著有你的空氣 就是幸福
Ti Amo Te Quiero
每一天都要愛上你
想著你 沉入夢境
一張眼 一清醒 第一個想到又是你
sa lang hae and I love you
我每天都要愛上你 (都要愛上你)
少一天 (少一天])就會遺憾 (woo hoo)
陪著你的光陰 怎樣都不算 蹉跎
好想縫合妳我手心 就這樣牽住放不開
有妳陪伴 呼吸著有你的空氣 就是幸福
Ti Amo Te Quiero
每一天都要愛上你
想著你 沉入夢境
一張眼 一清醒 第一個想到又是你
sa lang hae and I love you
我每天都要愛上你 [都要愛上你]
少一天 (少一天) 就會遺憾 (woo hoo)
陪著你的光陰 怎樣都不算 蹉跎 (都不算 蹉跎)
陪著你的光陰 永遠都覺得 不夠
went out mugging with qiu tdy, talked alot, mugged some, shopped a little. saw the bioskin ambassador aileen something. she's damn skinny=/ like skin and bones =/ well retail therapy helped out a little i guess.. qiu's really down so i'm glad she felt better.. sigh.. so tired of everything... really really tired..
no mood to mug really.. keep thinking alot.. and i just feel sad constantly.. luckily there's qiu and dada to make me feel better..
i'm turning 20 in... 9 days... sigh i don't want to grow old... =(
so many things i want to do still...
i just want to do well in my studies for now.. just can't focus on mugging.. sigh.. trying to kkeep these problems out of my head... it's just too painful to think about..
kaela @
11:25:00 PM
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
Just returned on thurs night from dunearn's sec 3 camp 2008!!
was great=) i took group 8 (Lam Joi-Shan) with Josephine, Danielle and Winandar=)
haha damn enthu bunch=) first night's night outing they practically dragged me around=) haha cheered me to endure on.. since the prize was to eat at the food court there, and i havent had dinner, so they wanted to win so i could eat=) haha damn cute=) ah i love running camps=) although its usually the same things, rock-climbing, kayaking, abseiling, high elements, challenge pole, zip line~
first night i had to scold the buddygroup though=( cause they were super uncooperative.. but they were okay after that la~
hmm for camp performance my group combined song with dance~! 2 guys strummed the guitar , a 'choir' sang 'that thing you do' and the rest danced to their singing=) damn nice=) haha i think the funniest part was when they kept 'flying kite aeroplanes'=D cause camelot there alot of planes flying past, then they will pretend they're flying their kites=)
haha in the end, our group won best group, best campfire performance and.. the best camper was Ashri from our group!! haha TURKEY!
kaela @
11:31:00 AM